Patience

laying here
in this very spot
where she laid
where she slept
where I felt her next to me
staring at the ceiling
as found as ever
feeling something
familiar
comfortable
beautiful
knowing a
change
was made
in an instant
it wasn't
then it.
was

too soon
too soon?
the question rings
in my head
in my heart
and somewhere in my soul.
I start
stop
and start again
only to stop
for it is
too soon
and it'll wait
I will
wait.
And enjoy this time
before
when only I know
what wasn't
then what
was.